Is it possible to genuinely smile and still feel shitty inside? Have you ever felt happy, content and feeling good about life even when it could be better or your going through a situation? Have you wanted to so badly hate someone or something but there is just something holding you back? Have you ever wanted to make a giant move or life change but keep convincing yourself not to just cause you are scared?
Well, today was a lot. I had a heavy conversation with a wonderful young man on a situation that connected us together. As anxious and nervous as I was and as much information I found out that I wish I hadn’t (sometimes I agree with the ignorant is bliss statement) it was uplifting and I don’t regret our time together talking or what information we shared with one another.
Then I had another conversation with a good friend and that was fun, well maybe not fun because it was heavy on life stuff but our outcome of the conversation was fun.
I feel like I’m now beginning the story of my movie script. Everything prior to this was just setting up for this moment. I definitely feel a journey coming on and a kick ass story to accompany it. It is amazing how our thinking can change everything. Think positive thoughts and you will feel positive. Negative thoughts and you feel negative.
I know this because I’m a victim of it. I CHOSE to allow negative thoughts dwell in my mind like a parasite. I CHOSE to keep thinking deeper and deeper into these negative thoughts.
Now, I CHOOSE to get rid Of those thoughts once they enter my brain. I simply say no to myself and I change that thought into a positive.
Examples: When driving now, instead of having extreme road rage I asses the situation and my thoughts of anger in a matter of seconds, as soon as I feel angry and anxious I just stop. I ask myself is this worth it? I calm down and I feel so much better and stop a terrible occurrence that rises my blood pressure.
Same with personal situations, I ask myself, is this thought worth getting upset over? Is this situation the end of the world? No, no 99.9% of the time it’s not.
Seriously, it’s okay to feel upset , hurt, angry, confused, hating life, hating yourself, with everything or anything, just reevaluate these feelings and unless you enjoy feeling negatively you have all the power to change it.
This goes for anyone of any age, all you high schoolers and your drama, yes everything is drama, all you 20 somethings figuring out your life’s path, you 30 somethings scared to start families or move to that next BIG chapter, you 40 and 50 yr olds going through a midlife crises and I’m pretty sure after 60 you should be wise enough and experienced all the BS you should have experienced and are wise enough to not give a shit and laugh about your past.
…one day we will all laugh at our past, think positively and don’t regret. Really, change your thoughts I’m sure you won’t be disappointed.